I don’t like to generalize, but everyone seems to have their own pre-determined plans for life. It seems like we all have this notion of what is supposed to happen and are stuck in our ways. I know that I am the same way. I like to plan things and be in control of a situation, and am never really sure what to do when life throws me a curveball.
Even though I am a free spirit and enjoy being spontaneous, I like continuity and security. I’ll be the first to jump at an adventure or a new place to explore; however, when it comes to everyday life and future plans, I get anxious when something unsuspected arises. Its ironic because lately, I’ve been through a lot of unsuspected events. I’ve always had such a distinct plan for myself but have found that my plan isn’t always what is supposed to happen.
Sometimes it’s not even something that is that important in retrospect, sometimes its something that makes me question my entire life. I like to continue full speed ahead, which isn’t entirely possible when life throws you a speed bump. I have, and still am, learning to take life one day at a time. I have began to appreciate that everything happens for a reason, both good and bad. I have learned that people change, relationships end, friends are not always the people you assume they were, and sometimes people will surprise you for the better; either way it’s not the end of the world.
My biggest “speed bump” occurred recently while I was applying for internships, on top of dealing with many other stressors. I had not found a whole lot of internships that would offer diverse experience in the veterinary field, so I was hesitant to only apply to a regular animal clinic. I was informed of an internship at a zoo and jumped at the opportunity to apply. I turned the application in months early, followed up with the man in charge, and waited patiently before applying for other internships. I figured I had it locked down, I had experience, higher than the GPA requirement, and wrote my application essay and was so confident in it. I planned my whole summer around this internship, and was ecstatic thinking about all of the opportunities this internship would bring me. Decision day rolled around, and I incessantly checked my email until I received the email. “Thank you for your application. After careful consideration, we have decided to invite other students for interviews.”I did ask for feedback on my application, and found that I did not receive the position because I had not expressed enough interest in becoming a zoo veterinarian, but I was devastated. I didn’t get the internship that I’d so long been thinking about.
Knowing that i needed to move forward and find an internship quickly, I began research. It was already April, and I was late applying for other internships because I had been so set on the internship with the zoo. The next internship that I applied for was with a state-of-the-art equine [horse] hospital. I filled out the application, and waited patiently to be contacted. After a week of no word, I decided to make a call. I left a voicemail, then the next day received an email congratulating me on being selected for the position, along with a few other girls, and was to report to orientation on the specified date.
Yes, I was originally upset about the zoo internship, but the internship that I was selected for is far superior [in my eyes] to the zoo internship for a few reasons. I have always wanted to be an equine veterinarian, and getting to be a part of this internship gives me insight into running an equine hospital. I get to observe exams, surgeries, reproductive medicine, orthopedics, and so much more. I have already learned about sterilization of an operating room [which I previously did not know about], biosecurity of a hospital barn, handling horses under sedation or anesthetic, and so much more. The vet that owns the hospital has an extremely prestigious reputation, is an incredible teacher, and is also full of life, which makes the internship that much more enjoyable. Each day, I learn more information that just throws me further into my dreams of being an equine vet and having a career that I will enjoy and won’t ever feel like true work.
I’ve learned a lot, and if I had to pass along any advice, it would be this:
Take each day as a blessing, and take life one day at a time. Be thankful for everything; every opportunity, every disappointment, every gift, every bruise- they each have something to offer or something to learn from. You never know what is going to happen, despite being perfectly planned. You aren’t in charge of what is to happen, and it’s important to let your life guide you. Surprises are around every corner, and everything, good and bad, happens for a reason. Sometimes the most disappointing thing to happen to you opens the brightest doors. Lean heavily on your family all the time, they’ll always be there for you. Let God’s plan shine through, and let him take the keys and follow with reckless abandon. Life is too short to worry about the unforeseen or unexpected. Take everything and run with it, because you’ll soon learn to fly with what’s been given to you. There’s always a silver lining after a storm.
Full speed ahead, but be ready to jump!